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hat’s because I was focusing too much on the dark, too much on everything else. I was feeling overwhelmed with my responsibilities. So anything that would take my attention away and bring me pleasure I would focus on that. It was Instagram, Facebook, Netflix, etc. And I was stuck just complaining about how hard life was at the moment, I just dwelled on what I was feeling. I dreamed of not having to work, of not having so much responsibilities and the more I did the more I got upset of where I was, of what I had to do. But what I needed to do, and thank God I eventually did, was stop and spend time with my Lord. I cried, no crying is not what I did, I burst out in tears before God. I opened all my feelings, all of my heart to him. After that moment did everything change? no, but my perception on it all changed. I felt God closer, I knew He was with me everyday through every trial, through every decision.
Emotional people don’t always notice they are being too emotional, I know because I’m a girl and sometimes I don’t notice at the moment. There’s nothing wrong with being emotional, but emotions can not be what leads us, what guides us, the base for our decisions. As I read Psalms 42, I imagine David writing down on a journal all that he is feeling and is saying to God. When I was younger I used to do that more often than I do now a days, I had tons of journals where I would write my feelings and emotions and most of the times they would end up in prayers. mostly prayers crying out to God for help to know how to deal with whatever had happened. In the book of Psalms we see David write many times his emotions, his excitement, his faith, his burdens and cries to God. And as we read chapter 42, we see how David would not let his soul take a hold of him, but he would take a hold of his soul. He owned his soul. Verse 5 “Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.” We can learn from David in this one verse, being a man or a woman we all have emotions. We all hear things or see things that makes us upset,makes us angry,etc and we don’t notice but those things effect our hearts. And once these things effect our hearts it’s hard to deal with. Our soul is made out of our Mind, Thoughts and Emotions, all these are also connected with our hearts. We think of things and plan things for the future which become dreams and connects to our heart. What happened? you gave into your soul, your soul is where lies your emotions, your thoughts, your heart. Your spirit in the other hand was crazy to get you up to go hear the word of God. (For the more we hear, the more our faith grows, and if we get up and we are sensitive to God, he can use us) John 15: 11 – If his joy is in us it is complete Prov. 4:20-22 Guard God’s word! keep eyes on God. Prov. 4:23 Guard our hearts we cannot guard all else and then our hearts. What we let in eventually will come out. What we hear, what we see, etc. We have to guard and filter our thoughts we may start to grumble, we may start to wonder about certain things we shouldn’t we may start to get down and dis-motivated and all this may start in our minds then to our hearts leading to our feeling and emotions. Because if it’s a thought in our heads it eventually will get into our hearts. Don’t believe everything we think and hear. WE have to own our soul, our emotions. we own our iPhone we control what goes into it and what comes out. the same should be with our souls and hearts. David wrote psalms started owing his soul, his emotions he would say I am down today (recognizing what he felt) but then he would own it to control it. -Psalms 42:11 I WILL praise him. The way your attitude starts does not have to be how it ends. Don’t let what you hear affect what you think and feel. Guard your hearts! prov. 4:20 What you let in will eventually come out Matthew 15:11 what comes out your mouth is in your hearts. You will feel what you say. So declare good things so you will feel good things. If you insist on saying what you feel then you will feel tha way. you can’t guard what you don’t own, that is why you need to own to guard prov 4:23
My husband would say to me all the time while we were going out,
” All comparison is foolish.”
And he is right, when we were courting/dating we were also in a long distance relationship, and this got to me a lot. As you can imagine having a relationship from long distance is very hard and I would not desire that for anyone, although it happens, and the relationship can still workout. At that time I would compare our relationship to many of our friends around us, because I wanted him close. And sometimes I would mention that to him and we would both be put down for the fact that there was only so much we could do through distance.
Recently God started to speak to me about comparison. How constantly we are comparing our lives, ourselves, our husbands/boyfriends, our friends, parents, etc. to others! But comparison brings us sadness, because we don’t have what the other has. Ever heard of that quote “The grass is always greener on the other side?” well that is what I’m talking about. We look around us and it seems like everyone else has it all figured out and everything put together but they are probably looking at you thinking the same thing.
We were created with intention. The flaws we see in our bodies, in our personalities, in our abilities, they are not flaws to God. If we continually compare ourselves to the people around us, we miss the opportunity to build others up and bring glory to God in what we can do.
One night I was at church, and my heart was a little heavy that day, I don’t remember exactly what was making me upset but one of those things were just not having Rafa close to me. He was in Seattle and I was in Florida, extremely far in distance. That night I watched as many of the couples got together after service to figure out what they were going to do, where they were going to go. And I just needed to talk to Rafa, so I made my way outside and sat under this tree by myself and I called him. We small talked for a bit and then I started to open up my heart to him. I told him I was upset that I couldn’t hold his hand like everyone else did, I couldn’t have him close to me like everyone else did . And as the cry baby I am, I began to cry on the phone. I was upset because I didn’t want to cry but I had to let it out. And he said Ester, I understand, I would love to be there with you but unfortunately I cant. and then he said, close your eyes, hug yourself and let me pray for you. And his prayer went something along these lines, Father I put Ester before you right now, I know that you love her very much, and I know that I’m distant from Ester and I know she is needy and misses my presence, but Father you are there with her, so hug her for me and satisfy all her needs that I can’t in the name of Jesus amen. It was a simple prayer he did, but as he was praying I truly felt God’s presence and Him hugging me. After we got of the phone I continued to stay seated where I was and I prayed to God asking for forgiveness. I asked God to forgive me one for comparing my relationship, my life to others and I asked forgiveness because I knew I need to seek God more. I needed more of who He is, His love, His presence.
The thing is, it’s easy to compare our lives to others. Why? because we go through trouble, situations, problems, everyday. But we don’t know the other person’s troubles, situations, and problems they are going through. We see a mere image, a second of when her boyfriend is kissing her fore head and they walk away giggling as if their relationship were perfect. The truth is, the more we compare the more our joy seems to disappear. When we compare we are putting our lives and selves lower than the one being compared to. And this is a lie, because God in his perfection creates us as his masterpieces!
Comparison is a thug that robs your joy. But it’s even more than that — Comparison makes you a thug who beats down somebody – or your soul.
Scales always lie. They don’t make a scale that ever told the truth about value, about worth, about significance.
And the thing about measuring sticks, girl? Measuring sticks try to rank some people as big and some people as small — but we aren’t sizes. We are souls. There are no better people or worse people — there are only God-made souls. There is no point trying to size people up, no point trying to compare – because souls defy measuring.
– Ann Voskamp
When we compare it’s almost as if we are saying God’s blessings aren’t’ enough. It’s saying that God isn’t enough, that what He is doing in our lives is nothing. That what he created isn’t enough.
Either be comparing blessings to other blessings, or our times of difficulty we need to know that God is with us, and what He has for you may be different than what He has for others. But one thing is for sure, God promises us that He has far more greater plans for our lives than we have for ourselves, that he will always loves us and always bless us.
The only person we need to try to better than and compare our selves with, is the person whom we were yesterday.
In Romans 12:15 it states “Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn.” The way to get over comparing is rejoicing with others, and this means rejoicing as in deciding in your heart that you are so glad and thankful for that achievement that others achieve. Whatever the circumstances be, rejoice!
God is good all the time, and He will always be.
He is with us through the hard times and the good times.
“I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.” – Psalms 139:141 [ESV]
It’s the fact where you’re at a place where you can’t do NOTHING and only believe and trust the Almighty God who can. And that was what it was like for Joshua, Joshua had no way to be able to go to that battle which he was preparing himself for and win, he didn’t have enough time, what he need was time, it wasn’t for more soldiers, it wasn’t for more equipment, or strength. No, it was for time, and to gain that, he need the sun to stop.
I’m literally just waiting for God’s miracle, and as I wait I just keep playing sort of a trailer of a movie in my head, because I can’t wait to actually see the movie. The trailer of the mysterious ways of our Lord, and how is He going to act in this specific case. And then in the end I will finally watch the movie, experience God’s miracle in mine and my families lives. (Then come and blog about it for your faith to be edified.) As me and my family fasted for 21 days, with this being our purpose and prayer request, I realized here is my sun-stand-still prayer. I can’t do nothing, but my God can do anything and everything. I know that as I pray in faith, and act in faith. God is faithful to do the rest. I love the Lord with all my heart, and declare that His good and perfect will be done in my life and my families life.
//sometimes we get so overwhelmed with all we have to do. We have too many responsibilities and all of a sudden all of them are priority.
Recently I was living a very overwhelming life, daily I had my schedule full and I was juggling these things which I believed where all priority to me. But then God started to speak to me, that all I needed to do was focus on him .
Sometimes we need to stop doing so much and stop taking too much on our hands. But sometimes these things that we have to do are all pressures coming and being allowed by God to make us grow. To take us to another level .
In my case that’s what it was, God wanted to teach me, stretch me, take me to a new level of authority and anointing. And all I needed to do through the whole process was focus on him. As I focused on him, the burden got lighter, the mess in my head because clear and I was as to do everything by GRACE!
God is good, all the time, and he’s always with us. He’s always there to help us, we just need to seek, cry out and focus on Him.